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Day 294 – In Memory…

Two years ago today, my Daddy was taken away from me and escorted to the gates of Heaven.  The sadness and emptiness seem even worse today than the day I received that fateful phone call.  I didn’t get there in time, and though he knew I was on my way, I still sometimes blame myself for not leaving for NC sooner that day.  For not asking my brother to let me talk to him, if only for a minute, so I could tell him one last time that I loved him.  For not being there with my brother as he watched our Daddy leave this world.

I know that all things happen for a reason and that God has everything already planned out.  But that doesn’t make me less sad, or less lonely, or less scared.  That doesn’t make me miss him any less.  That doesn’t allow my daughter to see her Poppy grow old, or allow him to see his grandchildren and great-grandchildren.  I don’t understand it, not at all.  But I must have faith in my God that He is in control and that He is taking care of me and my family.

Daddy was given a full military funeral because he served in the Korean War.  I was so proud that he was honored in that way, but watching the ceremony and having that honor guard give the flag to me was definitely the saddest moment in my life to date.  Today, Daddy’s flag is proudly displayed in my home.  And recently, I added the “Hero” Willow Tree figurine.

I love you Daddy, and I miss you every day.


15 responses

  1. Kim G

    Very moving Bonnie. I don’t know what you’re feeling but I certainly feel for you. This is a very heart felt, honest sharing of your thoughts and feelings. You have more strength than you realize and you’re right – God is taking care of you and your family. Remember you have many friends who are there for you including me. Love ya

    April 1, 2011 at 8:35 PM

    • Thank you Kim. Yesterday was hard, but I kept myself busy, and spent time with some of those fabulous friends of mine. I love you too!

      April 2, 2011 at 7:48 PM

  2. Dear Friend, your photo is lovely and the blog is very touching. I’m sending you tons of love and hugs today – and always!

    April 1, 2011 at 9:06 PM

    • Thank you Z. Love and hugs back to you 🙂

      April 2, 2011 at 7:48 PM

  3. Very touching Bonnie. It is very sad when we lose someone close to us, especially a parent. i have lost both of mine and more often than not I find myself thinking of them. ALl of the memories are good though which I know is what they would have wanted!

    Hugs and happiness Bonnie!

    April 1, 2011 at 9:10 PM

    • Thank you Craig, your words really touched me. I’m sorry that you have lost both your parents. Thanks for your kindness. 🙂

      April 2, 2011 at 7:49 PM

  4. Tammy

    What a beautiful and loving tribute to your dad…he knows how much you love him and is smiling down on you from Heaven! 🙂

    April 1, 2011 at 9:52 PM

    • Thank you Tammy…your friendship and encouragement mean the world to me!

      April 2, 2011 at 7:50 PM

  5. Amy

    Stay strong and continue to be brave – you are constantly in my prayers.

    April 4, 2011 at 7:52 AM

    • Thank you dear. And you are in mine. Love you!

      April 4, 2011 at 8:18 PM

  6. This is a fantastic way to remember him. I love these photos.

    April 4, 2011 at 10:07 PM

  7. Bonnie, I guess it’s been awhile since I caught up on all your wonderful posts and I’m loving your city scenes! When I got to this post about your Daddy I admit I got teary eyed. I still am fortunate to have my Dad, but he has health issues, and I cherish each day not knowing what tomorrow will bring. Your photos are a delight and I enjoy each of your posts even though I’m not very consistent about leaving comments. Keep up the great work! Cathy

    April 5, 2011 at 9:19 PM

    • Wow, I have been very slack about answering my comments. Thank you very much for your sweet words Cathy. Your encouragement and friendship means so much to me. I’ve learned so much from you and your blogs. 🙂

      June 1, 2011 at 7:23 PM

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